Follow up on radiation and eyeball fireworks

Forgiving; who is it for the giving

If you are a new subscriber to these posts I would encourage you to go back to my 1st posts and start reading from the beginning. A few of those that have read them in order have discovered hidden talents, such as the ability to heal others, along with other mystical talents that I will not get into, as those talents belong to them and should not be discussed in an open forum.

Been a while since I posted, busy as along tailed cat in a room full of rocking chairs. I just received a bit of unbusy. Dislocated my shoulder, I think to the maximum dislocation. Below is the x-ray of the dislocation. That has brought all of my projects to a complete halt. Now doing everything with the left hand.

I quit the radiation therapy after my left eyeball started to put on some great fireworks displays, a few other disturbing features like dark creatures racing across my vision, and those floaters that many people experience. Was told, even though it is a known side effect of radiation therapy to the head and neck, that it had noting to do with the radiation. Then the games began, one doctor showed me the recording of the last radiation record, showing me that it was no where near my eye, however it was not where the tumor was removed, even though he insisted that it was. Then another doctor showed me where they were supposed to be radiating, and it was not where there were radiating. All insisting that the eyeball problems had nothing to do with the radiation, even though it started just after the 9th session.

I was determined to quit, as other common side effects became known, like skin necrosis, and for this there was no real remedy. Argued with the head oncology doc for about 30 minutes. The end argument for the doc was that if I quit it would look bad on her record. (I should care?) What about me???

I next made an emergency appointment with an ophthalmologist, had the complete examination, 5 different looks at the eye, the last was they put some clear cream on my eye and stuck a special lens on it and had a good look. The diagnosis was that the white of my eye had separated from the other parts and I would need surgery to attach it again. They wanted to see me in 3 weeks and then would schedule the surgery.

Here enters one of those subscribers that figured out they could heal people from reading my substacks. Some of the descriptions/methods I gave of connecting with the cosmos rang bells and that person embraced their latent talent, tried it out and shades of the movie The Green Mile, did their 1st healing. I enlisted that person’s help. Three weeks later, back to the eye doc, a complete exam and what do you know, nothing the matter with my eye. Some doc head scratching, but said that maybe in a year I could have a small Cadillac, or was it a cataract. Language barriers I think, either way I will pass on it.

Forgiveness: really who is it for​? The following is my take on forgiveness and my reasons why.

Little story, had a wife that was into drugs, diagnosed as borderline personality disorder. We divorced, for various reasons, like I lost everything trying to support her, and she took lots of money, ran off with her cousin and left me with her kids. I found myself grinding my teeth from time to time, realized that I was thinking about what she had done. Needed to get rid of that negative emotion, so out loud I said I forgive you, only took twice and there you have it no more teeth grinding and negative emotions. Did nothing for her, but had enormous benefits for me. Conclusion, do not harbor negative emotions, resentment, anger or whatever else comes into play. Get rid of them. Had a conversation with the Green Mile healer and Green Mile made the comment that confessions, spoken out loud had a very cleansing effect, unfortunately the church can use it for nefarious purposes, and this I think is correct. There is power in the spoken word. I always thought that it was interesting that El Ohim, the 1st mentioned God of creation, spoke the universe into being. Said let there be light, the quantum physics of everything.

The turn the other cheek of the New Testament I would think only applies to the spoken assaults. Words will never hurt me is a fallacy, words will hurt you, especially when those words are negative, heaped on you at a young age. Guilt, shame, worthlessness, they can destroy a person. They can manifest physical ailments. Physical assaults, turning the other cheek only gets more physical abuse. Bullies do not back down by submitting, they back down when you stand up to them. In a previous post I mentioned an Indian tribe on the shores of one of the great lakes that the Jesuits had converted, and they turned the other cheek when a neighboring tribe came for the capture of wives and slaves. They did not resist, turned the other cheek. The attacking tribe figured that they were messed up in the head and decided to not take any women or slaves, figured that it was better to just kill them all so that this chain of thought would die with them. Kill them all they did.

What is next for me, beside getting my right arm back into working condition? Two things at least, probably more. Big one is I am going to Nicaragua, going to take part in building a resort, great challenge. Bar and restaurant there, 1st bungalow almost finished. Lots of future plans, want to make it completely self-sufficient, our own water, electrical power, food supply, then take what we learn and introduce it into the surrounding areas to lift up the economy. Going to supply decent jobs and opportunities for all.

Planning on writing a book with Jonathan Seiber, about my life and experiences so that others can benefit from them. Stories galore; one of the problems with my stories is that some people do not see the lessons, only the interesting stories. They miss the important part. Also am planning on fully developing my own mystical abilities to their fullest, this along with others that have contacted me with similar abilities through these substacks. I envision no boundaries to what we can accomplish together. Looking forward to the future and to helping others.

Have no idea if I will be writing more posts, never know until the cosmos puts something on me to say.

Please do read my substacks from the beginning, important messages from the cosmos, and the cosmos wants to have a relationship with you personally, an intimate relationship. Invite God, or what ever label you want to assign into your life, share your life everyday with the universe and you will see marvelous things.